Things My Three Year Old Is Teaching Me

Zara officially turns three today. Flashback to the day she was planned to come into this world (few weeks before she was due because of placenta previa) – the c-section procedure where you can hear and feel everything happening in the bright and cold operation room, that first cry of joy, the first touch with her in my arms and …

5 Things I Want To Accomplish Before I Hit 40

The Mummy day dreams a lot. Really a lot! So much so some nights she will wake up in the middle of the night from a nightmare of the things she need to do in order to reach her dreams. And after the awakening moments it usually means she won’t be able to fall back asleep. What does she do …

When On Leave and Away Messages Do Not Apply

It’s December and Christmas is in a few days time, over the years of working life, this year is the only year where I am still working my ass off till the very end of this holiday season. Don’t get me wrong I am not complaining here but more so a reflection on how things have changed and it’s no …

Ayra The Funtastic Four

Everyday I look at you, with 100% focus, I see a different you. You have grown so so much and I am asking myself where has my little Ayra gone. Your words, your actions, the way you scream and cry, the way you interact with your toys bringing them to life and how you can transform from a 3+ year …

Sleep, all else can wait till the next day

The Loving Mum - Reflection of The Mum

The past couple of weeks had been hectic and exhausting for me, in health, energy, mind, body and even my soul. All along I thought I am a mum with super power and an everlasting battery to boost my power. But I was wrong. I am no super mum and my battery gets drained out too; even faster if I …

Terrible Two Even More Terrible with Number Two

Oh boy! I don’t know where or how to begin recording this core memory of ours with our number two. With Zara turning two next month, we are already feeling the strain and exhaustion from guiding her to learn to understand herself, expressing herself, controlling her emotions and knowing what’s right and wrong, what’s acceptable and not acceptable behaviour. Being …

I am not enough.

For the longest time, I thought I am a good mum. I thought I have been doing it right and enough to bring up my girls the right way. I thought I have been managing the whole family life thing right. But I was wrong. I am not enough. I am not patient enough. I wish for more patience when …

A letter to the 20 year old me

Dear 20 year old me, Oh how I missed you so! Yes, that is a super cheesy start line, but really I miss you a lot. The 20yo me was filled with passion and energy, filled with gusto and drive and all I ever wanted was to climb those ladders up up up to as high as I could. There …

6 days to meeting Baby No. 2

After yesterday’s (last visit) to the gynae, it is confirmed that I will need to undergo a C-section for the birth of our No. 2 baby, Zara. Earlier period of pregnancy, it was made known to us that my placenta is pretty low and I was told to be careful when moving about. If any bleeding occured, I should admit …