Welcome Zara our second precious girl!

It has been 9 days since the arrival of our no. 2, Zara. She’s such a tiny precious darling, and has been behaving well since the first day. Life at home still needs a little getting used to, trying hard to balance our love and attention between our soon-to-be two-year-old Ayra and Zara. Since the day they both met, we felt the change in Ayra and it was as expected. We know she will grow over this period soon and both girls will be the bestest sisters ever!

There are so much to blog and remember, until I find a good hour or two to sit in front of the keyboard, these memories will have to be stored in my mind for now.

So this is Zara…

Happy Dreams on Day 09

6 days to meeting Baby No. 2

After yesterday’s (last visit) to the gynae, it is confirmed that I will need to undergo a C-section for the birth of our No. 2 baby, Zara. Earlier period of pregnancy, it was made known to us that my placenta is pretty low and I was told to be careful when moving about. If any bleeding occured, I should admit myself into the hospital immediately. After that day, I was very careful and hope the placenta will move up and let the baby get into the right position for a natural birth.

At the gynae visit before, baby’s head was moved to the right position, but wasn’t engaged. I thought she will remain that way and slowly get into the right position. During the past three weeks, I’ve been feeling the pressure and strain in the lower tummy area, presuming its the baby’s head pushing itself through to be in position. Alas, it was the baby’s whole body pushing the placenta downwards, which causes the pain.

When I heard that a C-sect is requiried, entire mind and body was in shocked. I was told to sign several pieces of documents in the gynae’s room and my mind was just blank. The reality sank in and my heart was just speeding so fast I didn’t know what to do. The date was set and the countdown was shrank from 21 days to just 7 days!

Told my hub about it when I came out of the room, and he was also shocked. We aren’t prepared, mentally and financially for a C-sect. Last night, we reassured ourselves that everything will be alright.

Last night, I just couldn’t sleep. Too many thoughts rushed in and the more I reassure myself, the more afraid I gets. The thought of going through a C-sect frightens me. The knife cutting through my skin, the carrying out of Zara from inside, the stitching, the after pain that I’ve to bare, the need to be careful with my movement, the thought of the stitches not healing fast enough… and so much more… Why are there so many ladies out there that prefers to go through a C-sect instead? Isn’t it more scary than a natural birth?

I must calm myself.

So today, 6 days to go before I admit myself to undergo the very first operation of my life, one that will bring our darling baby girl no. 2 into our lives.

I hope and pray for a safe delivery.

6 days to meeting Zara

The Loving Mum

Awaiting the arrival of Baby No. 2

We are into the counting down by the days now! Am at the remaining 21 days to be exact. And that’s the EDD for Baby No. 2, which by now could be weighing close to 3Kg (was 2.6kg three weeks ago). Things are slowly getting into place at home, except for…

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[li]Packing of my hospital bag[/li]
[li]Getting and filling up the hospital admission forms from KKH[/li]
[li]Setting up baby’s cot[/li]
[li]Getting an infant car seat (which will also be used as a rocker for home use)[/li]
[li]New bottle warmer[/li]
[li]New accessories for medela pump[/li]
[li]Still am considering whether or not to buy a new stroller that’ll fit both my girls e.g. The City Select[/li]
[li]Mummy’s personal stuff[/li]

The list above isn’t much, but with my tummy getting heavier and legs swelling even more easily each time I walk, it’s starting to feel like a chore moving about. Even getting my butt out from my office for lunch is a tiring affair. So I requested to walk from home from today onwards, so glad the bosses are supportive of this. *Feeling grateful*

I foresee this blog being neglected slow in posting for the next couple of weeks till I find time to post again. More updates will probably be found on my Facebook Page, so go LIKE it if you have not.

Till I have a chance to blog again, all the best to myself and my delivery!

On being pregnant the second time (A Letter for Baby No. 2)

Hello my dear child,

In about a month or so, you will be in my arms bringing more sunshine into our life. Mummy has been having guilty feelings and I’m writing you this letter to tell you why.

Throughout this period of having you inside me, I realized my thoughts and feeling during this journey is very different from the very first time when I had your elder sister, Ayra.

When I had Ayra inside me, I would talk to her, read bedtime stories, listen to music together and always feeling very excited about having a baby inside me. I’ll be thrilled whenever she moved and kicked inside. Sometimes I’ll even snap photos of my round round tummy just for the fun of it. But now, I seldom or don’t do any of the above at all with you. I’m sorry. In the first two trimester, I even forgot I am pregnant on some days! Really very very sorry my dear child.

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Hello Baby No. 2

Drafting of this post started on 15 February 2013 and published only now cause I needed to be sure no. 2 is ready to be revealed.

Sometime last year, we decided it is time to give Ayra a younger sibling. It is either now or never. My plan is to get the child bearing part of my life settled and spend as much time as I can with my babies till they are ready for school. I don’t wish to see one child to school then plan for a second one, this will not enable me to return back to work and help bring in some dough for the family. So we did it.

Being the kan cheong me, I used the first kit too early. It was three weeks before my expected cycle and the test was negative. A week later, I decided to test it again, this time the second line was showing a little but never quite revealed in full after several minutes, so I take it that the kit was faulty. Still feeling that something is happening inside me, I tested it again few days before my cycle. And this time the lines were clear.

On January 6, 2013: It’s positive!
Hello Baby No. 2!

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